This i the reason why I like to deactivate my facebook sometimes. I hate to see pictures of my friends having fun, I hate to see pictures of my batchmates on their clinicals, I just hate seeing it. I do envy them, it breaks my heart seeing them having fun while I'm here trying to work my arse off  just to be in a post-secondary institution. I find it unfair that I have to suffer this hard. It's like whenever I see new photos, or I would hear new updates, I feel like something is stabbing me in the chest. I know I should be strong, but I just can't.

The emotion's really getting into me, inside me. I can feel it sinking into my bones. I feel so hopeless, I don't know what to do anymore. This is not good for me. I miss them so much and it hurts me to see them do their thing without me. I miss the times when we're acting young and stupid and just won't care about anything at all. I wish I could go back home this instant. How I wish.

Can someone give me a one-way ticket home?