This is hard for me you know, but I'm trying. I'm packed up with shit loads of problems which myself can't solve. You have no clue what I'm in to, and what I'm feeling right now. No one knows. I just wan't to break down sometimes but I can't. I have to pull myself together at some point. You see I'm a complete mess, a mess ever since we came here. I've tried to do everything but it's not that easy. I've expected to much, assumed too much and I failed, which literally gave me a depression. So please, just let me. This is my life, this is my messed up life that I'm trying to fix. I'm doing everything I can to make myself happy. So please, I'm tired of all the bullshits that I've been experiencing for the last year and half, I just want to figure things out. Just let me.